Xixi loves, loves, LOVES her cousin Selah. Xixi thinks she is beautiful. Xixi wonders what she is doing in the middle of the day. Xixi likes to stare at her pics on the fridge. Xixi becomes giddy with excitement when she knows she will get to see Selah soon.
Sadly, the love isn't always in return.
Even though they are both four years old, in little girl years--which I guess is comparable to dog years--they are something like 14 or 15.
There is always some type of drama going on between them. Usually, its Xixi wanting to smother Selah and its Selah pushing Xixi away with her brown Ugg boot. So many times I've had to console Xixi because, "Saaaay-waaaa doesn't want to be my fweeeend!" But I know my daughter enough to know she is a little sneak and a whiny-butt. Still, it always seems like its Xixi chasing Selah around, wanting her full attention, crying when she doesn't get it. And Selah, in all of her pre-teen four year-old glory, shining Xixi on.
But at school, the playing field gets leveled somewhat.
Xixi has homies. They go way back. Since they were in diapers and were pushed around in strollers. And its Xixi they call to come and sit with them at lunch, with their Hello Kitty and Tinkerbell lunch boxes, fruit roll-up wrappers and juice pouches. They squeal and run to the playground and do all the things little girls do.
We tell Selah, go, go play with the girls. And she'll stare at you with these big brown eyes and eyelashes like Snuffleupagus and say, flat out, no, I don't want to. And then she'll proceed to go and play with Diego, who will always push her on the swing.
I tell you, I fondly remember spending time with my cousins in my childhood. They were my best friends. But the biggest issue we had was not having enough time to build our Barbie houses, and watching out for those crafty cousins who liked to jack Barbie clothes (guilty).
But these little girls, well, they are something else. They are just too funny.
I just hope they will always be there for one another. That they will be close enough to tell all their secrets to one another. That they will be true friends. Even if it doesn't appear so at the moment.